The writer in me..

To be quite honest, I never write intentionally. Whenever I do write it almost always has to be because something bad is happening to me at that point in time. The times when its not, is because I'm listening to music. I listen to neosoul. NeoSoul is basically the "new soul" music. It is composed of poetry and "feel good" music. Its a very emotionally based genre of music that happens to make me think about poetry! I write poetry almost every time I do write. I write about events that has happened in the day, and the point of it all is how it made me feel, and my immediate reaction. Me being an African American brother motivates me to write about my surroundings, my people, my family, love, the economy, what they expect from me, my heritage, my neighborhood, and personal current events. Out of all those topics the main thing that I seem to write about the most is love. Maybe its because when I listen to music while I'm writing, most of the music is about love. Maybe its because when I write the room is dim, and I'm sitting on my bed in a calm warm setting. Either way it always turns out to be about love. Most of the music that I listen to talks about how something went wrong within the given relationship, but when I write about love I write about how things feel right. I write about how she is making me feel like the man I WANT to be for her even though I may not be being a man at all. I write about how beautiful, radiant, resilient, womaned and powerful she is. Other than that I don't write. I find it hard to write while being timed. I find it hard because while I'm supposed to be writing I am usually spending my time looking at how time is flying. I find myself just getting started when the teacher is collecting the writing samples. I do my best work when I am by myself, in my room, and when I'm NOT being timed. I know that writing is healthy, because every time I do get done writing I feel as if I have figured out the very thing that had me baffled before. Writing really does help out a lot. The only problem with it is that writing at home is very stressful. I only have my mother and father and my three sisters who are younger than me, but they happen to be the most needy people on the face of the planet! They don't know when to allow people to be by themselves, and to them homework is no exception. The other bad thing about writing is getting started, and figuring out main points that you want to cover while on that particular subject, which is why I rarely write.